Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide. No escape from reality.
Open your eyes. Look up to the skies and see...
I'm sure Queen was talking about something else, but for me it's a good summary of how I feel right now.
Last week was a blur. The only demarcation between days was the different clothes (sometimes) I wore and the food I ate. I am definitely a proponent of supporting local businesses AND keeping my belly happy during this time!
Attempt at structure! |
So, we made it through our first week of stay-at-home work & school! Let's take a moment to celebrate that and learn from it before heading into week 2 of probably several more weeks (pray not months).
It wasn't terrible, but it was weird and mentally exhausting. Trying to bring structure to both my kids' days as well as mine was a major struggle. Despite that, I found myself in a constant state of distraction and worry, ranging from "I'm stunting my kids' learning" to "we are all going to get sick". In the end, this just made me more prone to obsessively search social media and to taking spontaneous naps to save me from myself.
Like any sort of change, the early days seem to be the toughest. I am certainly going through a denial and anger phase, which I hope will evolve to more productive emotions soon. To that end, I'm learning a lot from my kids and how they have not even skipped a beat through all this! I watch them in awe seeing how quickly they are embracing the simple pleasures of being at home, being around family, and exploring new activities together.
Wearing green for St. Patty's Day |
They are even taking to their schoolwork with a positive attitude, feeling giddy about being part of "Principal Jane's school". And as much as it's been difficult for me to juggle and feel like I'm not utterly failing in every area, I couldn't get through any of it without the help of our nanny and mother-in-law. I recognize this may not be a luxury I can continue to keep for the long-term if this virus contagion worsens, but for now I completely recognize the gift it was to have their help especially during the first week!
As I head into Week 2, here is the mindset I am trying to embrace:
- Take it one day at a time and celebrate small steps forward. Week 2 will be better. I will work out more this week than last week. I will shop online less than I did last week, etc.
- Don't force acceptance, yet look for some good in the situation to maintain positive momentum. Acknowledge some of the upside - an extra hour of sleep each day, more time to cuddle and be with the kids, opportunity to finally use that elliptical, time for log-neglected organization projects, etc.
- Tackle new projects but don't go crazy. As much as I am tempted to fill this void with more busyness, I am sure this is God's way of also slowing us down.
- Actively seek and give support. The quickest way for me to get out of a funk is stop drowning in my own whine and finding new perspectives from others. If this social distancing thing has taught me anything is that we are social creatures and are better together.
- This is not a permanent state of being, and yet one that I can learn and grow tremendously from if I allow myself to.
Celebrating our 11th anniversary at home! |
Here are words from our Sunday School song that the kids have been singing on repeat - how appropriate during times like this!
What have I to dread, what have I to fear
Leaning on the everlasting arms?
I have blessed peace with my Lord so near
Leaning on the everlasting arms
Leaning, leaning
Safe and secure from all alarms
Leaning, leaning
Leaning on the everlasting arms